See that picture up there - that is from the night of my 40th birthday - a birthday I was so excited for, I did not round up for the first time in my life!
See, my birthday is in December and though I turn a year older at the end of the year, I had always rounded up so the day after my birthday when I turned 30, I was already 31 if anyone asked me how old I was and in my own head I had already gone up. I don’t even remember being 35 for example because I was immediately 36.
For my 40th year, I did not want to rush it - I wanted to savor it. I love getting older - always have and now doubly will love getting older because 2 weeks before my 40th birthday, I was diagnosed with breast cancer! On my 40th birthday, I got a pet scan. A freaking pet scan! Best gift ever is that it was “clear” and I was able to have my mastectomy and lymph node extraction a few days later.
There I am in that photo, surrounded by my husband and kids and I was smiling but inside I was petrified knowing I had a malignant right breast. I was smiling for my kids, who did not yet know I had cancer. I was smiling because somewhere along the way from diagnosis to that point I decided I would smile like my life depended on it because it actually, in my humble opinion, did.
I do not round up anymore. I am 41 and will be 41 until December 13 when I will, God willing, turn 42. I am savoring my year and living each day in the best way I can be - as someone who is truly happy and enjoying each day in any way I can - by writing, by sharing and by trying the best I can to help others. What changed about your birthday rituals after cancer?
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