I spent most of my life hearing my relatives beg for “peace” and seeing the exact opposite - we are Italian and we fight a lot.
I also then continued my life in the world of in between - of issues and anxieties and worries. When I first married my husband he went off to Atlantic City with a friend and went incommunicado for days - it was a few days before our local wedding as we had eloped and he was just missing. Something he never got was that as an Italian woman, if I don’t hear from you in a few days I assume you’re dead.
It was a big part of my controlling tendencies (though he was just wrong for disappearing for days of course)... getting cancer meant I couldn’t be in control anymore and it highlighted I truly never was in control.
I learned early on in this process of unknowns and scary medical jargon that I could not maintain my pre cancer mentality and I had to embrace peace and the unknown. I have done it pretty well with the partner to this and tomorrow’s gratitude preview - positivity.
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